Q School Update
I sit here; two rounds into fall Q school, and I’m reeling from my play. I have had nothing resembling mental strength so far. My focus has been terrible. I am focusing on all the wrong things when trying to hit a shot. The result is; you guessed it, bad golf shots.
I fired 77-76, and find myself well back of a potential card for 2009.
I’ve hit the wall, I’m very confused and lost with regards of what to do. This is not a fun place to be. I haven’t given up, I understand in 2 rounds I can play well and get myself back on tour next year. It’s just the other thought that is looming in my head. If I don’t play myself onto tour next year, what will I do??
It sucks! Thinking like this is awful. There is more out there than just this Q school, but right now I’m having a hard time looking past it. I’m trying everything I can this afternoon to dig deep and motivate myself to rise to this challenge. I know it’s possible, and I can vividly imagine how great it will feel to accomplish this feat. These are the thoughts keeping me going.
Like I said, the other side of the spectrum scares me. I’m scared to not get my card, I’m scared that I won’t have what it takes to compete anywhere next year, I’m scared that not competing next year will be the end of the dream. I’m certainly battling some demons this week, and it’s like nothing I’ve ever experienced. I can’t say I enjoy it, but I’m still embracing it for the growth that will come from it.
I will more than likely be off early tomorrow morning. I’ve got a good friend of mine picking up my bag for the next two rounds. Dean plays out on tour and I’ve gotten to know him very well this year. He is very excited to team with me and get the job done in the next two rounds. I’m counting on having him with me to help me pick some targets and stay focused and committed to them.
All of this struggling reminds me of the core principle of Vision 54: “ imagine the impossible, and then find a way to make it happen”. Some might say it will be impossible for me to climb my way back to life this week. In the face of that thought, I’ll hold on to Vision 54, and be very optimistic about the next two rounds; so optimistic, that even my score of 290 last year can be matched(do the math…)
I’ll be back tomorrow, to post on how round 3 went.
