Archive for March 2008
What a Day
Today was a very interesting day. It was one of those days that never seemed to special or extraordinary while unfolding, but after it happened and was looked back on, was so desperately needed.
I played golf today with 3 members from the Hunt Club, back home. We had a blast, the golf was both good and bad, but the time spent was great. After the round we all sat, with even more people from back home and just enjoyed each others company. I later went out to dinner(and then ice cream) with 2 couples from back home, and it was amazing.
These events were nothing special or abnormal, but for many reasons they meant so much to me.
With just 3 weeks until I leave Florida for the road, the reality of a lonely life on the road is starting to sink in. It is very scary, a reality that I am very excited for but at the same time very fearful of. I have no idea what to expect out there, no idea what week after week in hotels and restaurants all by myself will feel like. All of these thoughts have been creeping into my head and making me a little afraid of it all.
I think that is why today was so great. I got to spend time with so many familiar faces, and experience how much they are all pulling for me to do great. All of the emotional support coming my way is so important, and I will never take it for granted. I am so thankful that people are offering me so much support.
I don’t think these couples understood how much today meant to me. It was everything that I needed in this moment. I am lost for words at how to express what is actually going on inside me all because of this day of golf,drinks(orange juice for AJ),dinner, and ice cream.
I really cherished this time with people from back home because I realize that it will be a long road without that. It is one thing to to meet people on the road and become friends with them, but to be so far away from so many people that have watched me grow and mature as a golfer and person will be difficult.
This day came at a perfect time because I have been doubting everything lately. I believe because this is a knee jerk reaction to being away from everyone that I know and love. My mind is telling me that the only way to be back with all those people is to give up on this dream.
Luckily, my heart is not listening. My heart is the reason I am doing this. I am a dreamer, I follow my heart in every situation. Very rarely do I listen to my mind with all its logic and reality talk, dreams are far more exciting.
Today was a day that the dream of my heart was proven right over the logic of my mind. I don’t really know why or how time with people from back home did this, but I really can’t complain. Maybe it’s because all of their support(to just spend time with me when they realize the reality of my lonely life) really touched my heart.
The emotions that I’m experiencing have triggered a reminder of why I am doing this, it has let me re-discover my motivation, even if it had only disappeared for a day or two.
Thank you so much guys for your company and support. It means the world to me. Even if you never thought you were doing anything special, you were. It would be hard to explain this in person, so hopefully my writings have done the job.
With all that being said, my last 3 weeks in Florida are going to be very busy and very exciting. A lot of people from back home, including my major sponsor are coming down within the next 3 weeks and I will get to play a lot of golf with them.
Most importantly, my dad is coming down. He will be here for my last week down here. We will get to play a lot of golf and spend a lot of time together, something I never realized meant so much to me.
If nothing else, if my career never gets to the place I dream it to be, I will deem it a success. This journey will be amazing for me to build relationships and truly appreciate people. The perspective I am gaining is such a blessing, I am beginning to love and appreciate the people in my life in ways that I never thought imaginable.
Here’s to you…
